Ever since social media took flight, I have posted a slew of photos of myself in various states of being. This act has garnered a mixed response from my family, friends, acquaintances and virtual strangers. Some people see it as incredibly vain while others perceive an exceedingly confident woman who finds her physical appearance and its twists and turns, interesting.
It’s really neither of those things, I think.
At a very young age, due to a variety of tricky circumstances, it became 100% impossible for me to see myself as I really am in any reflection. Years ago, I worked for more than a decade on trauma therapy and PTSD, but one thing that never recovered, and is still true today, was and is my ability to see myself accurately in the mirror.
So, the only way for me to see myself as I really am is through photographs.
This is an enormously private admission, but one I hope will help someone else. It is nothing to be ashamed of, and really nothing you have to explain to anyone. I am here to explain it, so you don’t feel shame about empowering yourself to show your true, beautiful self to the world.
It used to frighten me that my reflection in the mirror was vastly different than the reality of my physical appearance seen only through pictures. Now, I’ve come to accept that this is how life moves for me.
The flack and/or applause that I receive for switching my photos, selfies and otherwise, on an almost constant basis is worth it to me. Obviously, I could just look at these photos, and not swap them in and out, every other moment on Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, etc. Still, perhaps there is someone out there who feels stupid, silly or self-critical for fulfilling themselves on an internal AND external-facing level.
For me, it’s so worth it. With each new photo I post, whether it’s pretty, goofy or sad, it’s a proclamation that this particular woman, me, has come so far and continues to grow no matter what past, present or future circumstances have been, are, or will be.
I’d so enjoy seeing as many photos as you want to post of how far you’ve come, where you are at this very moment, and the estimable and adventurous places you’re headed.
Self-acceptance is where it’s at. No doubt.
I love you, you beautiful human being.