On Not Giving Two Fu*ks, or Even One.

Let me begin by wishing all readers and non-readers, a meaningful Christmas. While it may look different from person to person, and place to place, my prayer is that each human being, and our collective human community, give and receive healing, love and joy. May it wash over us and repair this world.

Plus, I think Jesus would totally dig it.

IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER: The word “Fu*k,” sans asterisk with the “c” inserted in said word, is utilized a great deal in the rest of this post. Read at your discretion.

• I don’t give two fucks.
• I don’t give a fuck.
• I don’t give a flying fuck.
• Watch all of the fucks I don’t give.

etc.

I hear these particular phrases at least a few times per week, and in the past several days, I’ve noticed a remarkable increase in all sorts of people not giving fucks all over the fucking place.

Please note that I sort of like the abovementioned phrases and almost always enjoy the delivery. I don’t think, however, I have ever said the first or fourth example listed.

I, along with the committee that lives in my head, has some thoughts about these types of verbal ejaculations:

They just don’t add up. They may even be dishonest.

I typically hear these expletive phrases, or similar iterations stated with some “oomph” behind them, and sometimes, great passion. As I listen, or read about all of the fucks you, for example, don’t give, I am compelled to admit something to you…

I think you do give a lot more than two fucks. I think you care about and are invested in whatever it is you are claiming not to give any fucks about.

When I REALLY don’t care about something, it doesn’t take up any head space. I don’t talk about it or write about it. I’m also not holding any resentment about it. Then, I’m actually free from it. So, the idea that I exclaim anything about not giving any fucks, just isn’t there.

I’m not asking you to stop saying it.

BUT,

for me, I can’t think of one example where I have stated, “I don’t give a fuck,” where inside of me, somewhere, I actually do. Sometimes, I care a great deal, and other times, I still hold some feeling (often, anger), about some part of it, which is why I’m compelled to state, “I don’t give a fuck.”

I don’t say this very much at all, because really, I give a whole smorgasbord of fucks and far more, about so many things. Plus, I’d rather be honest about caring and realistic about anger I may still be holding onto that I haven’t released.

So, on this Christmas, I love and care about you and humankind so much, that giving  gigantic fucks, doesn’t accurately or appropriately express my foundation of dedication and devotion.

Hey, look at all of the fucks I don’t give about that one thing though.

…Yeah, I’m working on it.

Love and light to you and yours. No expletives, just lots and lots of love, respect and even, hope.

Peace,

Pam