ESCAPE ROUTE: Make it less private.
Ask for help.
Tell the truth.
Notice and acknowledge when your world doesn’t fall apart when you share your shocking, painful, traumatic feelings and fears. In fact, no one may gasp. They may nod in empathy or agreement.
You don’t have to tell someone else’s secret/s to share your own secret/s.
Open up to someone and watch how fast you realize you are not really in hell nor have you ever been, except by holding and even watering the seeds of your own thoughts as you foster their growth.
Whoever you are, I am sending you love, investment and understanding and not from my own private hell but from my kitchen as I make split pea soup.
Keep it simple. Share with someone. This too shall pass.